Last week I was on day 17 (in a row) of working one-hour+ on this search for a startup. Things were moving. Each day was fun. I think I wrote an average of 1000 words a day, not because I was trying to, but because I had a lot to say.
Then I hit a wall so hard and didn’t even see it coming.
Out of ideas. Feeling unmotivated to keep moving forward. Not sure if people would ever buy anything I produced. Seriously, the song of self doubt is on repeat.
Last night I watched Chase Adam from Watsi talk about his startup experience. In that talk from Startup School this year, he tells the story of getting lucky (which they did). They got Hacker News to bite, and were approached to be the very first nonprofit member of YCombinator. That’s lucky.
But in Great By Choice, Jim Collins talks about luck not as something that only happens to some people. Luck happens to everyone – both good and bad. Some people start with an advantage, and I would argue that in the grand scheme of things, I started with a huge advantage. I went to school every day on a full stomach. Got my first email address in 1998 (LEGOBOY7@JUNO.COM SUCKA! HIT ME UP!). My first computer came the same year. So yeah, there’s no way I can honestly whine about lack of advantage.
What is really crushing me is not lack of opportunity, but lack of focus.
Forgive this bemoaning blog post. I’m writing to vent. It’s good for the soul. And maybe I can climb over this wall.